Yesterday i had one of those thinking, alone days where i mostly flitted inbetween sadness and insanity. Today i am thankfully back to my “normal” self. Occassionally i have these moments of utter despair when i feel like nothing i do is good enough and that everyone in my life would be happier without me, im not talking about me killing myself, for the record but more along the lines of blah friends think im boring, i dont make jason happy, im rubbish at my job etcetcetc.. And so the cycle begins and swirls into a mass vortex of self hate and thoughts of utter unrealistic happenings that sometimes i cant distinguish what is the truth.. Anyway thankfully that day is over now for atleast another six months and so hopefully my inner balance is restored.
